Really goofy episode of NCIS on CBS tonight. She rejected Tony 9yrs earlier 'cause he was the one, but now she wants "the one." Hope he's not stupid enough to consider it 'cause of unresolved feelings these years later, 'cause they're not only entirely different people now, but their lives weren't shaped by the same shared experiences to where they're not even on each other's radar, realistically, with the lives they've lived since then. "Once the one, always the one" AIN'T NECESSARILY SO if the two have developed yrs of experiences independent of one another, as well as relational pains and responses to those pains since then that have reshaped their insides from anything either of them previously knew. 

Paths cross when their trajectory is crossing and only in that crossing moment do they have the option of forging a new path together.  Even if it would have lasted for as long as God exists in that brief moment those 9yrs earlier, that's no guarantee that that would be the case these days after soooo many yrs.  Their only real relational hope would be if God, Himself, were putting them back together & not time and chance, which are both deceptive and often revisit with greater cruelty (7X more) in the end than the previous time 'cause of the momentum of both lives that's developed in a more sophisticated path in entirely opposite sides of the cultural and geographic spectrum! 

From the moment that couples know they're right for each other, it's a race against the clock to build something together, lest what they're building independently forge enough of an internal difference in both of them that it'll never be "right" again.  Only God can say that these bones can live together, once that initial season has passed when things were filled with enthusiasm between them for each other!

One of the things that bothered me about that episode of NCIS is the implication that real-life superheroes would be so hokey!  That's a slap in the face of everyone in life that in their moment wind up being real heroes that don't wear gov't uniforms.  Everyone from neighborhood watch volunteers to the guy in the pickup at 4am during flash flooding that pulls a MacGyver in saving the lives of folks in a tiny Miata car that's 3ft under water and there's literally no time for EMT, Firefighters, and the cops to show up, to the person that's involved in animal rescue situations that doesn't wear much of a uniform that's civilly recognized should take great offense at those kinds of story musings that poke fun of real life people every single day that in their moment prevent so much harm!

There was a way of writing such a story arc to share that kind of everyday reality, over the course of 2 to 4 episodes where there might of been as many gags as sobering lessons that everyday people can be heroes and not even have a badge, nor receive much in terms of public adulation for their timely sacrifices or timely risks to do what needs to be done, but they chose the "Season-filler" route demonstrating inept writing skills, lack of clear vision for their story concept, and to show their overall cynicism at life and everyday miracles!  Writing was so bad and calloused that I'd almost wonder if my wife-to-be really were a writer or if there were a writer in that side of my family that really needs a paddle beating of their behind 'til they've stopped swearing and have sworn to God that if they ever survive this that they'll use their pen to build a better world rather than to merely poke fun at it!

Figuring the writing would have been months ago, for the time discrepancy on 9yrs ago, if it were meant to hit a little close to home in a provocative way, ON PURPOSE, then that would have been one Hell of a way of shouting from the rooftops that my beautiful bride was genuinely on her way into my life.  However, I've noticed other large-scale teases along the way that I kept my comments about fairly minimal, and this is as easy as any of those to merely indicate I'm in the thoughts and prayers of more folks than I'd imagine, but it isn't necessarily positive proof about an amazing close to this month, entrance into the Purim season this yr, or a deliriously joyful close to 2012 as the worst case scenario on timing for when my beautiful bride would be in my life.  It's not the first episode of a show that's caused an Arsenio Hall "things that make you go 'hmmm...' moment" over the yrs. So there's the added pressure on my beautiful bride that if she were responsible for that, then she cried wolf at other times too, and I better see her sooner than later if that's to mean anything we'll look back on with a smile.  Miracle I saw as much as I saw of the episode, though it's one of my favorite shows, simply 'cause I've had so much else going on.  Almost a fleecing moment of "he sees THAT and 'gets it,' I'm on my way" on her part, PERHAPS, or, I find out she was on her way ANYWAY.  Already had a fast planned before seeing the last third of that episode, and that episode didn't trigger the next day or so, for clarity. One of the reasons I "lived it up" with my share of some DPs that were bought over here, instead of spreading 'em out. 

Simply saying, here, that my wife might of been owed a favor, if that's where the next few weeks lead in my life, in terms of how the episode "Secrets" was written in Season 9 of NCIS isn't a cause for her to hit the panic button 'cause it wouldn't or shouldn't lead to a million unsolicited manuscripts or whatever!  Particularly, if it's not among their most highly rated episodes or whatever, in however those kinds of numbers are tabulated.  Obviously, my personal yr concludes without romantic incident, then it was nothing more than one of those well-timed SELF-IMPOSED April Fool's jokes we're all capable of playing on ourselves from time to time with prematurely being overly optimistic about any signs in the natural that weren't chapter and verse of the Scriptures! 

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO MY BEAUTIFUL WIFE, WHEREVER SHE MAY BE! From Martin, who was evidently prejudged as a "Tony DiNozzo" yrs ago FOR GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT REASON.  If I had to be mistaken for anybody on that show, YRS AGO, why couldn't it have been Leroy Jethro Gibbs?? roflol  Not like he's got a squeakier clean past, but seems to actually try a little harder than Tony.  I guess when a girl's in denial about "the one," she'll tell herself anything to justify stepping away in heart OR actions!  My wife's got a lot of rebuilt emotional capital with that episode tonight, if that was in any way, even fleetingly, "helped along" by her ideas or a general gist of everything that had to be within a certain ballpark of getting said. Hope she uses it very wisely!!